I had a conversation with a friend last night about taking chances, externally processing, and writing before I really know what I have to say.
She was asking me about the new website FatPrivilege.com that I started a few weeks ago to talk about the opportunity for Christians to take something perceived as a negative--being overweight--and turning it into a positive. Hopefully, the posts I've put up so far have helped people start thinking about their bodies in a different, more positive way.
But, I have learned, it is always a risk. It's always a little daunting (or very much so) when you start a new project, put part of yourself on the line to share with others.
My friend Corrie told me a long time ago something that has shaped me:
"Vulnerability begets vulnerability."
When I choose to share something, I am risking a lot of things--being rejected, being ridiculed, being taken for granted. There is a lot of wisdom to be had in guarding my heart. But at some point, I have to risk something to help myself be known, to help other people know they are not alone.
For me, this has been creativity in writing--my blog, the new FatPrivilege.com, short stories that I share with friends and family.
Every time I write and share with other people, when I reach the pointer of my mouse to click "send" or "print," it feels a little like coming to the edge of a cliff or the bay door of an airplane high up above the ground below.
It's scary. It's exhilarating.
And though perhaps I have overshared some, it has been a learning process. It has been worth the risk so far. The old phrase "Nothing ventured, nothing gained" comes to mind.
As your toes near the edge, the brain starts to send out all sorts of warnings. Some of these warnings are good--to be kind, to be careful, to be smart. But others of these warnings are just fear masquerading as caution. Pray for the discernment to know the difference between the two. Stay rooted in Scripture and community. Seek counsel of those who know you well and who are for you.
And then go for it.